inventories

Daily inventory – 31.07.17

  SELFISH - I didn't really help others today, but focussed on myself.  I could have done an amends from my list - cleaning the kitchen and hallway, but felt too tired to do so. DISHONEST - I didn't let my sister know that I wasn't coming over, I should have just declined her invitation… Continue reading Daily inventory – 31.07.17

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abstinence, sobriety

12 things I’ve learned from Alcoholics Anonymous + Overeaters Anonymous

The old-timers have something special about themWhen I went to my first meeting, I was amazed by how the people who shared spoke - they were uncommonly articulate, emotionally open, and honest.  They way they could describe their inner world with such clarity and insight astounded me.   They could talk about their assets and… Continue reading 12 things I’ve learned from Alcoholics Anonymous + Overeaters Anonymous

relapse, step work

Continued food binge + Step 9 amends

I'm on a roll with this binge - 6 days in a row!  I wish that was something to celebrate.  Today my food has been: Coffee with soymilk x 3 1 sausage roll (I usually eat meat, so I'm not sure what this is about) 5 jam doughnuts 5 chocolate doughnuts Fizzy juice drink Sparkling… Continue reading Continued food binge + Step 9 amends

relapse

Food and alcohol relapse – lacking Power

I haven't written in a few days - guess where I've been!  In a food and booze coma!  I'm very predictable; if I'm not doing well then I'll disappear, ignoring texts, calls, emails, writing, and the world in general. It all started on Tuesday.  I was doing fine, day 4 of abstinence, then BAM!  Out… Continue reading Food and alcohol relapse – lacking Power

abstinence, step work

Taking Steps 4, 5, 6 and 7 (again)

I have just taken these steps again with my sponsor, this time while abstinent.  She recommended working the steps when not in a food-fog, advice which I failed to heed the first time around last week. My Step 5 was a lot shorter this time around (5 resentments and 3 fears added) and I must… Continue reading Taking Steps 4, 5, 6 and 7 (again)

abstinence

Food Plan + day 3 of abstinence

I thought I'd post my food plan so perhaps I'd be less inclined to tinker with it.  It's fairly flexible and seems to be working.  I also have red, yellow and green light foods - I don't eat the reds, can eat the yellows in controlled portions, and I don't worry too much about the… Continue reading Food Plan + day 3 of abstinence

abstinence

Online meetings + day 2 of abstinence

Nailed abstinence yesterday!  It wasn't as bad as I thought and I have complete faith that it will get easier with time.  Although a lot or OA-ers disagree with food plans, I feel that it helps to remove some of the mental obsession about what to eat.  It ties into Step 3 - surrender. Today… Continue reading Online meetings + day 2 of abstinence

abstinence, relapse, sobriety

Alcohol relapse + first day of abstinence

Last night I drank for the first time in 37 days.  My second relapse since coming to AA a few months ago; last time I had 49 days before I poured poison down my throat (and subsequently ended up in hospital for 2 days, but that's another story). It was a classic case of perfectionism… Continue reading Alcohol relapse + first day of abstinence