Nailed abstinence yesterday! It wasn’t as bad as I thought and I have complete faith that it will get easier with time. Although a lot or OA-ers disagree with food plans, I feel that it helps to remove some of the mental obsession about what to eat. It ties into Step 3 – surrender.
Today has OK, although I’ve had some sugar withdrawal symptoms like a headache, nausea and tiredness. A long nap and a nourishing lunch helped.
Last night I went to an online meeting at http://www.oa12step4coes.org/meetings.html
It was great, I felt so much gratitude for the support that was there. It’s quite something in the ages of trolls and memes that there’s a place you can go on the interwebs for encouragement and empathy. It’s not an audio meeting, so you just type. There are 7 meetings every day!
Here is the schedule converted from ET to GMT
ET (eastern time) » GMT (greenwich mean time)
7:00 am » 12:00 pm
10:30 am » 3:30 pm
2:30 pm » 7:30pm
6:00 pm » 11:00 pm
8:15 pm » 1:15 am
10:30 pm » 3:30 am
12:30 am » 5:30 am
I’ve also found some whatssapp meetings where you can connect with people from all around the world who share in text or voice notes. I listened to a lot of shares then messaged people who I really related to, and as a result have some new OA’ers to text for help or to just vent. The internet is great!
The point of all of this is that I am building a big support and accountability network around myself so I’m less likely to just slip of the map and go into a week long binge-fest. Reading the Big Book with my sponsor today, the importance of service and fellowship really leaped (lept?) out at me. Service is not just a nice thing to do, it’s ESSENTIAL for recovery and to prevent relapse. Fellowship too is not optional; as Bill says on p.15:
“When all other measures failed, work with another alcoholic would save the day. Many times I have gone to my old hospital in despair. On talking to a man there, I could be amazingly lifted up and set on my feet. It is a design for living that works in rough going.”
Much love x