relapse, step work

Continued food binge + Step 9 amends

I'm on a roll with this binge - 6 days in a row!  I wish that was something to celebrate.  Today my food has been: Coffee with soymilk x 3 1 sausage roll (I usually eat meat, so I'm not sure what this is about) 5 jam doughnuts 5 chocolate doughnuts Fizzy juice drink Sparkling… Continue reading Continued food binge + Step 9 amends

relapse

Food and alcohol relapse – lacking Power

I haven't written in a few days - guess where I've been!  In a food and booze coma!  I'm very predictable; if I'm not doing well then I'll disappear, ignoring texts, calls, emails, writing, and the world in general. It all started on Tuesday.  I was doing fine, day 4 of abstinence, then BAM!  Out… Continue reading Food and alcohol relapse – lacking Power

abstinence, step work

Taking Steps 4, 5, 6 and 7 (again)

I have just taken these steps again with my sponsor, this time while abstinent.  She recommended working the steps when not in a food-fog, advice which I failed to heed the first time around last week. My Step 5 was a lot shorter this time around (5 resentments and 3 fears added) and I must… Continue reading Taking Steps 4, 5, 6 and 7 (again)

abstinence

Food Plan + day 3 of abstinence

I thought I'd post my food plan so perhaps I'd be less inclined to tinker with it.  It's fairly flexible and seems to be working.  I also have red, yellow and green light foods - I don't eat the reds, can eat the yellows in controlled portions, and I don't worry too much about the… Continue reading Food Plan + day 3 of abstinence

abstinence

Online meetings + day 2 of abstinence

Nailed abstinence yesterday!  It wasn't as bad as I thought and I have complete faith that it will get easier with time.  Although a lot or OA-ers disagree with food plans, I feel that it helps to remove some of the mental obsession about what to eat.  It ties into Step 3 - surrender. Today… Continue reading Online meetings + day 2 of abstinence

abstinence, relapse, sobriety

Alcohol relapse + first day of abstinence

Last night I drank for the first time in 37 days.  My second relapse since coming to AA a few months ago; last time I had 49 days before I poured poison down my throat (and subsequently ended up in hospital for 2 days, but that's another story). It was a classic case of perfectionism… Continue reading Alcohol relapse + first day of abstinence