Inpatient treatment centre + Borderline / Emotionally Unstable Personality Disorder (BPD or EUPD)

I did a bit of research about inpatient treatment centres for addiction and binge eating/compulsive overeating. I've had a lot of treatment - therapy, medication and psychiatry - for depression but not for my alcoholism and eating disorders. I ended up going for a consultation at treatment centre yesterday and my insurance has approved a…

Continued food binge + Step 9 amends

I'm on a roll with this binge - 6 days in a row!  I wish that was something to celebrate.  Today my food has been: Coffee with soymilk x 3 1 sausage roll (I usually eat meat, so I'm not sure what this is about) 5 jam doughnuts 5 chocolate doughnuts Fizzy juice drink Sparkling…

Food and alcohol relapse – lacking Power

I haven't written in a few days - guess where I've been!  In a food and booze coma!  I'm very predictable; if I'm not doing well then I'll disappear, ignoring texts, calls, emails, writing, and the world in general. It all started on Tuesday.  I was doing fine, day 4 of abstinence, then BAM!  Out…

Taking Steps 4, 5, 6 and 7 (again)

I have just taken these steps again with my sponsor, this time while abstinent.  She recommended working the steps when not in a food-fog, advice which I failed to heed the first time around last week. My Step 5 was a lot shorter this time around (5 resentments and 3 fears added) and I must…

Powerlessness

After my first blog post I continued to use food for another few days.  It really is insane how all the commitment in the world is easily overridden by the disease of addiction!  Although the last few days of food insanity have been hellish, I have come full circle back to Step One and gained…

First blog post

"She said she would, so she did." ~ random girl I follow on instagram.   The relevance of this 'profound' quote - I said I would write a blog so here I am.  I am writing because; a.) it will give me something to do instead of drinking and eating b.) it will keep me…